just a quickie to let you know i'm here, and i'm ok. as planned, i ate everything...and i mean EVERYTHING over the weekend with my mom. we had 5 of the most decadent meals of my life, and a constant supply of chocolates in our hotel room, all rounded out by plenty of wine. i couldn't even deal with knowing what i weighed when i got home. but i started a fat fast right away, and i'm just wrapping up day 2 of that, and i feel great. i did weigh this morning and i was up about 4 pounds. that seems fair based on what i did. i actually started eating on thursday at lunchtime, so we're looking at about a pound per day of cheating. but i've stuck to the fat fast perfectly yesterday and today, and i spent 2 hours in the gym last night and again tonight. i felt pretty amazing tonight, even though prior to the workout i felt a bit shaky. i ran so much better tonight than i have since december. all in all, things are good. i feel strong again, i feel my resolve creeping back as march gets closer. first 5k of 2014 is sunday. i won't make any PR's, but i will finish it. i went almost 3 miles tonight with no problem, which restored my confidence.
i really want to show you a better version of myself than i have since thanksgiving. you've been on the roller coaster with me, and i'm really trying to make it stop now. i've had my fun, it's time to get myself into a cute swimsuit in june!